God

I am continually amazed at how many people proclaim that whenever they pray to God and/or ask Him/Her for something, they never hear anything in return. "God has forsaken me," they say.

At that I am compelled to ask the individual, "So how much time do you spend with God such as going to church, praying and so on?"

I am surprised by the candor of most who think this answer should be enough: "Well, I go to church on Sundays."

I then ask, "Yet how many hours do you spend watching a baseball, basketball, or football game on television?"

Without hesitation they are always quick to respond, "Oh about six to eight hours a week, sometime more, why?" They even know ever statistic related to each and every game and/or each and every player. Yet they don't know one verse by heart from the Bible.

Thus, I think the answer to my question is quite obvious; don't you? Most individuals spend more time watching television, going on vacation, going out with friends, and similar flights of fancy than they spend with God.

In my world I have always seen God as I would a parent or even grand parent. Given that, it would be quite callous of me to only spend an hour a week seeing or talking with them. Likewise, it would be even more callous of me to go out in public with my parents looking as though I was getting ready to go to bed or collect garbage. So then, why do people wonder why God does not answer? Didn't someone say, "you only get what you put into it."

Simply, if you haven't the time for God, why should He/She have the time for you?

More importantly, who believes that you can show up to church in the clothes you dig holes, or play basketball in, or even what you would shop at Walmart in? How little respect do people really have for God?

Yet people will dress to the "nines" for a date, a wedding, or while appearing on television. But they can't dress up in something formal to see God once a week?

If you don't understand what I am saying than ask yourself this one question: how would you feel if you had a child that spent less than one hour a week with you, didn't take the time to dress up when they came to see you or when they went out to dinner with you, but kept asking you for something everything their life was turned upside down? Would you be so eager to give them what they want?

Moreover, how much time do you give in your community on behalf of God? Showing up at a charitable event once a month or once every two months, or more commonly once a year is not a commitment from the heart -- its just a perfunctory fulfillment of an obligation you might otherwise have ignored if there were something better to do.

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Love for Life? Bah Humbug

Since I can remember, I have always, always believed that once I was in a relationship, it would be a monogamous one. Although my first loved passed on, I still believe that if I decide to settle down again, I want to be in a monogamous relationship. However, I am now informed by an HIV support group that meets in Concord, California that such a notion is entirely unreasonable, ill-advised, irrational, ludicrous, preposterous, and imbecilic. Case in point.

Our facilitator ("Jack") is a young man of twenty-six (26) years old. He has only been publicly out as a gay male for the last year-and-a-half. He has been in his first relationship for only nine (9) months. So, as is the alleged standard protocol for all "new" relationships, Jack chose to take PrEP. However, after being with his significant other for nine (9) consecutive months, and after having discussing with each other what the nature of their relationship would be, Jack went back to his primary care physician and informed him that he would no longer be taking PrEP. Quite unexpectedly, Jack's physician reacted in disbelief and pleaded with Jack to wait at least a year before discontinuing PrEP. I was horrified at what I was hearing. Thankfully, Jack stood is ground and did not resume PrEP therapy. However, the men in the HIV support group were adamant that Jack was making a completely irrational mistake and that no matter what, Jack's partner was going to cheat on him; so get back on PrEP. What?

So, the doctor doesn't believe that Jack's partner is capable of being monogamous.
So, everyone in the HIV support group doesn't believe the Jack's partner can be monogamous either.
Are they right?

Moreover, I am informed that if I believe that there is one homosexual male located in the fifty states let alone the world that can be monogamous, I am a fool. As one lawyer put it in the group, "the only reason monogamy existed was because of property issues by Kings." "Humans are not meant to be monogamous!!" he continued to affirm in a impassioned voice.

Finally, I was informed by another facilitator involved with the Center that some study illustrated that over seventy-percent (70%) of men have admitted to cheating on their relationship. So Lance Bass and Michael Turchin are going to cheat on each other and have an open relationship? Has someone told them this? Are they on PrEP?

So what these men in this HIV support group want me and everyone else to know is that AS SOON AS YOU CAN, begin taking PrEP so that no matter what, you can be "promiscuous" but don't have anything to worry about when you are. More importantly, stay on PrEP even though you finally find Mr. Right because you even though you profess to one another you are in a monogamous relationship, you won't ever be monogamous relationship.

So what is the price of this attitude? PrEP consists of taking a drug called Truvada. The claims are that in clinical trai In clinical trials of PrEP to date, the drug reduced HIV infection risk by up to 92% when taken as directed and as part of a comprehensive HIV-prevention package including condoms, safer sex counseling, and HIV testing.

But what no one tells you is what every single HIV positive patient will.
In exchange for protecting you against HIV infection, YOU WILL develop one or more of the following
symptoms. Please note that those symptoms in maroon are a side effect at least 95% of HIV patients developed while on Truvada. As a result patients now had to take even more medications to combat the side effects of Truvada, and those had all their own set of side effects to contend with.

  • Blisters under the skin
  • body aches or pain
  • difficulty in breathing
  • ear and nasal congestion
  • fever and chills
  • loss of voice
  • pain or tenderness around the eyes and cheekbones
  • rash with flat lesions or small raised lesions on the skin
  • redness of the skin
  • runny nose
  • sore throat
  • spots on your skin resembling a blister or pimple
  • unusual tiredness or weakness
  • diabetes
Less common:
  • Blindness or vision changes
  • burning of the face or mouth
  • burning, crawling, itching, numbness, painful, prickling, "pins and needles", or tingling feelings in the hands, arms, feet, or legs
  • chest pain
  • clumsiness or unsteadiness
  • stabbing pain
  • weakness in the hands or feet
Incidence not known:
  • Agitation
  • bloating
  • bloody or cloudy urine
  • bone pain
  • change in how much or how often you urinate
  • coma
  • confusion
  • constipation
  • cough
  • darkened urine
  • difficult or painful urination
  • difficulty in swallowing
  • fast heartbeat
  • fast, shallow breathing
  • general feeling of discomfort
  • increased blood pressure
  • increased thirst
  • indigestion
  • irritability
  • itching skin, hives, welts
  • lethargy
  • loss of appetite
  • lower back or side pain
  • muscle pain or cramping
  • muscle twitching
  • pains in the stomach, side, or abdomen, possibly radiating to the back
  • puffiness or swelling of the eyelids or around the eyes, face, lips, or tongue
  • rapid weight gain
  • seizures
  • sleepiness
  • stomach pain
  • stupor
  • sudden decrease in the amount of urine
  • swelling of the face, fingers, hands, lower legs, or ankles
  • tightness in the chest
  • yellow eyes or skin
  • Blisters under the skin
  • body aches or pain
  • difficulty in breathing
  • ear and nasal congestion
  • fever and chills
  • loss of voice
  • pain or tenderness around the eyes and cheekbones
  • rash with flat lesions or small raised lesions on the skin
  • redness of the skin
  • runny nose
  • sore throat
  • spots on your skin resembling a blister or pimple
  • unusual tiredness or weakness
Less common:
  • Blindness or vision changes
  • burning of the face or mouth
  • burning, crawling, itching, numbness, painful, prickling, "pins and needles", or tingling feelings in the hands, arms, feet, or legs
  • chest pain
  • clumsiness or unsteadiness
  • stabbing pain
  • weakness in the hands or feet
Incidence not known:
  • Agitation
  • bloating
  • bloody or cloudy urine
  • bone pain
  • change in how much or how often you urinate
  • coma
  • confusion
  • constipation
  • cough
  • darkened urine
  • difficult or painful urination
  • difficulty in swallowing
  • fast heartbeat
  • fast, shallow breathing
  • general feeling of discomfort
  • increased blood pressure
  • increased thirst
  • indigestion
  • irritability
  • itching skin, hives, welts
  • lethargy
  • loss of appetite
  • lower back or side pain
  • muscle pain or cramping
  • muscle twitching
  • pains in the stomach, side, or abdomen, possibly radiating to the back
  • puffiness or swelling of the eyelids or around the eyes, face, lips, or tongue
  • rapid weight gain
  • seizures
  • sleepiness
  • stomach pain
  • stupor
  • sudden decrease in the amount of urine
  • swelling of the face, fingers, hands, lower legs, or ankles
  • tightness in the chest
  • yellow eyes or skin
  • Depression
  • diarrhea
  • nausea
  • Acidic or sour stomach
  • anxiety
  • back pain
  • belching
  • difficulty in moving
  • heartburn
  • joint pain
  • lack or loss of strength
  • pain
  • passing of gas
  • stomach upset
  • stuffy nose
  • sweating
  • swollen joints
  • tiredness
  • trouble sleeping
  • vomiting
  • weight loss

I would very, very much like to know your opinion on the issue. Write me and I will promise to publish some of your answers.

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